Monday, May 01, 2006
I dont know why im feeling sooo depressed...But what i know is that its not because of exams...I dont know whats the reason that made me like this....my mind is sooo elsewhere...Im not concentrating on my work anymore...Im thinking of that somebody whom I ONLY think i would be with for my whole life but i know it wouldnt happen....Sometimes i just think that im a useless brat...I mean I get almost everything that I want and I expect a maid to do every single thing in the house,when i should be helping around...I really am useless...And I just realised it...
WOW!!!
The person whom I've a huge crush for
1 year,4 months and 6 days just treats me as a fren and nothing more...How i wish i have someone to really trust to and spill out all my problems...Because i just cant bottle everything up in me...I cant stand it any longer....Can I just jump down from a hundred storey building?! Can I? I wish I could...Nobody knows my true feelings...If all of you reading my blog read my diaries,then you'll really know the real me..I dont tell everyone my problems whether it is at home,in school or with anyone...It's all written in my precious diaries where I wrote how I feel for the things that other people do or what i did....My feelings and everything,you can find in there...I'd rather bottle things up rather than telling someone and being laughed or humiliated at...I just don't know what to do...
I dont know if im alive when im typing this thing...I seriously am clueless you know...I just want to ease my mind and sit by the beach watching the calm sea all by
MYSELF...It might be helpful..Or maybe not...Ok...I dont really have the strength to type this thing...How I wish I was killed in that accident last year..So I wouldnt have caused much trouble to others...I just wished that would happen again..............
there it went
3:41 PM
