Saturday, August 19, 2006
Havent been blogging lately.Haiz.Wanted to blog,but kinda lazy to do so.So anyways,lately,kinda busy,well not really.Hmm.Ok,got my maths test paper back,and Im like soo happy!!Wooohooo!! Ok.It's either Tuesday or Wednesday lah..Got it back and guess what? I got 25/30!! Yay! Thats like 83 lah..Actually dropped if based on my SA1 results.lol.But,who cares?So,then I thought I would fail..Coz I took when I was seriously sick that time,the day I was hospitalised that one..Yeah..So,jumped for joy..And Rong Hao being idiotic challenged me to do around 3 maths problems from the textbook to see who finished the fastest with the correct answer.And I rawk! Why?Coz I finished all of them the fastest with the correct answer.Lol.He was careless.Haha.Too bad.Yeah.
Then yesterday and on Thursday,had to go grandma's house coz she was sick.Really sick.Yeah.And on thursday,came back at 1.10pm,went back home at 9.30pm.Lol.yeah.yesterday reached home at 10pm.Haiz.Tired.Went there yesterday,coz cuz called to go there.I went there and she pathetically didnt come.pfft.Until I slept waiting for her to come.Pathetic.Yeah.
Ya know why my grandma's sick?Coz she missed her 2 oldest grandchildren.Yeah..Which are my cousins lah.I think my family's gonna fall apart.I mean, look, my cousins and their parents,have never since called my grandma when she's sick,until she cried.Then,sometimes,I and Nurul tried calling them,their mum will like talk in a rush like that...Not letting us talk to our cousins.Like wtf?They are my cousins.What right do my aunty and uncle have to prevent us from being close with them? I mean even though they are trying to avoid us from being close to them,they are still and forever will be my cousins.Like,have you heard of cousins,from a close-knit family,only seeing their family members once in a year?Yes,only once a year.Which is hari raya.Thats like the last time I saw my cousins and their parents.Now,my family is kinda drifting apart from them.Like far away from them.Ok.At least if you dont wanna meet us,at least go see my grandma,which is only their grandma,who is like sick..Have they got a heart or not?or are they born to be heartless?Thats what I always ask myself regarding them.Nurul and I are trying to make an effort to like call them and asking them to see our grandma.But,to no avail.We SMS-ed, we called and did everything that we,as the oldest grandchildren that are always by her side for now,to make her feel better.Its like unfair ok.I mean their mum should remember who gave birth to her and took care of her and so forth..I pity my grandma ok.She kept looking out of the window and thinking that soon they'll come.But I dont think they will.Grr.Wtf.Now,the feeling is like we're strangers and don't know them.Seriously.Even my uncle's,who is my mum's brother-in-law,sibilings came.Tell me,distant family members came to see my grandma,what about her own child??Didnt even call,didnt even come.Kinda sad to have a family like this.Oh well.Just as long as this problem could be settled fast,its ok.
If this thing makes me stressed out,I dont mind at all,coz this is for my grandma and for the sake of my family so that it wont fall apart.This is the only thing I and Nurul can do to help the family.Seriously.Haiz.If the things that Im putting effort to put back the family as one is not working,I dont know what else to do.But to pray,that one day they'll realise their mistakes and all.
I think I'll end here.Lol.Its enough confessions to make in today's post.I really,really need a break after settling all these stuff.Dont come and ask me what happened and so forth.Coz,I dont wanna talk about it.Okies?Hope you'll understand.Bye!
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