Monday, September 04, 2006
I dont know what to say,but my life is so freaking meaningless.No strength to move on anyway.I wanted to cry and cry and cry all the way till my life ends,but its just useless.I shall not cry anymore. I shall try to be happy.And so far only 1 person had seen the difference in me.Im faking to be me I used to be.And that person who knows I've changed throughout this 9 months is Nadzirah.Thanks for being there for me ALL the way girl.And nade,you too.The me that I used to be was a happy go lucky girl,be bubbly and always a smile on me.But,now Im faking all these.And I thought no one would realise.So here i am blogging about my fucked up life.Did one poem for no special reason.
I hate to be me
That I had to admit
This is just so fucked up
And everything MUST go wrong
Now let me ask
Why in the world are we fighting for?
I thought family means one
And we solve the problems as one
In years to come,
It'll be obvious there's a split
Probably a split
Which will go on FOREVER
Tell me
Are we meant to be a family?
Are we meant to support each other
With rivalries going on between one another?
I just dont understand what they want
What they need
Everything's just not going right
Nor am I thinking right
Is this what we want?
We've come this far
And now you're telling me
We're gonna break up into pieces?
This is not making sense
I cant take things anymore
I just wanna live in peace
Where God will be by me
There.The whole thing doesnt make sense,I know.Its supposed to be senseless.Since my life is also meaningless.I shall stop here.Nothing really happened lately.Just cries from the heart.And everything so fucked up in life.and I dont know what to do besides dying.And yeah.I dont know what to do.I shall stay the way I planned to be and will always be.
there it went
4:58 PM
