Leave it as it is;

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

OK.Didnt go school today.Duh, on MC.Plus 1 week of no no P.E. ok THAT'll be BORING.Bleh.Like what the heck la.Im really bored.Now.No one online.So damn bored.

SO anyway,today,finally I told someone who I REALLY love.I got that off my chest,like finally.And Im still not telling who that person is.Its not who you guys think it is.DEFINITELY NOT PAUL.Yes,I DID admit I KIND of like him.But like as in friend like AND THATS IT,no more than that,I SWEAR.Yeah,so,Im really not telling anyone.Its someone,whom none of you know or maybe.Whatever.And I told my maid,lol.She understands me lahhh.Im not planning to tell anyone else.NEVER telling anyone else.Coz probably,I realised that I really love that person.OK.Too much information,SOO.....

LET'S MOVE ON!!!!!

HMMM..I just realised another thing today.Ok,there's this saying "What goes around,comes around",right? I realised that,you may not realise it,whatever we do now,no matter whether its good or bad, it will actually come back to start again.
Ok.You dont understand that,dont you?Let me make it into a short story.Its real,btw.
Its actually between a boy and a girl.The boy is called Alan.And the girl is,erm..Sera.
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Alan and Sera are actually close friends when they were really young.And both of them are somehow related.This Alan,he's handsome,rich and matches everything on the Prince Charming list,adding to that,he's not a playboy. Sera is actually a normal girl,who is somewhat a tomboy.Alan is actually a year older than Sera.And let me add one more thing.Sera does not know how to have feelings for boys.ok?Here goes.

Alan and Sera will always play together when they were young.Since young,Alan had feelings for Sera despite her tomboyish looks and also tomboyish attitude.Though they are millions of girls after Alan,he still LOVES Sera no matter what.One day,when Alan really couldn't hold back his feelings any longer,he told Sera.And Sera just bought 2 ice cream for herself.

"Sera,I want to talk to you."

"Talk lah! What you want to talk about?Just now,I ask you if you want ice cream,you dont want."

"Erm..But I..Dont know how to say."

If you dont know what to say,then dont say!"

"Ok lah.I want to be honest with you.I like you.I mean,not as in just like,but actually I LOVE you."

Sera just kept quiet and continued eating her ice cream,as if nothing had happened.When they stopped for a while,Alan asked again.

"Sera,did you hear what I said just now?"

"Yeah..If you love me,then love me lah!What you me to do??!!"

Those words that had just came out from her mouth,shocked him to death.So,he decided not to say a thing.

The next day,they still acted like normal,as if nothing happened.As time goes by,Sera started to learn how to like boys.And from there she started liking him too,but dare not say it out.Alan kept writing her letters to tell her that she's the only one in his heart.

After graduating from secondary school,Sera decided to work in Malaysia to help put her aunt there.With the strong feelings that she had for Alan,she still left for Malaysia.After 2 years of working in Malaysia,she asked for permission to return back to her hometown,to visit her parents.

Days after she returned home,her cousin told her that Alan wanted to see her.

"For what?Ask him to go back lah!! I dont want to see him also!!" Sera said,as if she was being possessed by some kind of Setan.

"You sure you dont want to see him?He's waiting for you at the normal place..", Randy,Sera's cousin said.

"Duh!! If I said,I dont want to see him,then I dont want lah!!"

So Randy left her alone.Though she really missed him really badly,she,being stubborn didn't want to see him.Want to know the reason why?

There was someone who framed Alan of being a playboy.And stupidly,she believed.So,she had this mixed feeling of hating and loving him at the same time.

So,when she had to return to Malaysia o earn more money,she left without saying a thing to Alan.Of course,Alan felt terribly sad.

One day,Sera opened her mailbox,and she read a letter.A letter from Alan.

Dear Sera,

You now know that I really love you with all my heart.But how come,you won't return my love?Probably,you already know that Im getting married.Im getting married because its arranged by my parents.Although Im going to marry her,but,really,I never loved her even one bit.Even though Im getting married,I will still love you forever.And I dont know if this marriage will even last long.Please,if you really love me,just please this once,tell me that you love me too.

Love you always,
Alan

After reading it,her tears fell.The mixed emotions that she had ran through her as if she really was going to black out.When her parents called her that Alan,was really getting married and the process of the exchange of rings was going on,she cried and in her,her heart was screaming out loud, "ALAN!! DONT GET MARRIED!! I LOVE YOU TOO!! PLEASE,CALL OFF THE MARRIAGE!!"

Because of her ego,she couldn't stop everything that had/was going to happen.Even if she does,it would be too late.She cried her whole heart out,and until now,it really hurts.

Years had passed.And Sera found herself of what she thought was Mr. Right.They went on the relationship for 2 years and even got engaged.Weeks before her wedding,she found out something...

The person,who she thought was Mr. Right,is actually a married man with children.

But,with a strong heart and strong self discipline,she didnt really cry.That was because she knew,thats her "blessing" of not returning Alan's love,though,she did have feelings for him too.But what she did that was wrong was, hating him for no particular reason and always avoiding him and always hurt his feelings.

She now learned her lesson that she should accept someone who really love her.

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Moral of the story : When you hurt someone who loves you so much,and hurt him/her,it will come back to square one,if you love someone and then the person will hurt you back,maybe as much as what the other person felt when he was hurt by you.

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Ok,yeah.If you still dont understand,then I also dont know.Lol.Really,the saying really will have,at least once,made you realise your mistakes and made you regret on what you have done in the past,right?

Ok.So enough of that.Byes!! Im going off!

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5:01 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

Having a fever.Bleh.Still havent go doctor.Checked my temperature,its like 38.2. So its only a SLIGHT fever.Also having flu.And I've come to a conclusion.

----> Do not play in the rain,if you know you're gonna get sick.

Haiz... I played in the rain thrice last week.Oh well.Its fuunnn.But,the disadvantage is that you'll get sick.Whatever.I just found out that I also have migraine.Like what the heck?I was watching tv then got this sharp pain on my left side of my head.Like damn painful.Until I walk here and walk there,and made my mum like follow my moves.Lol.

Then when I woke up this morning,I could barely feel my hands and legs.But then,still took shower,thinking that I could go school.But then,I really felt weak.So,told my dad that I wasn't feeling well.The weird thing is,when I woke up at 9 am,then I go check my temperature,it was like 35.3? Thats the lowest my body temperature has gone.Lol.Must be something wrong with me.I wore like 2 jackets? Crazy,I know.But really,damn cold.Haiz.

Anyway,received sms by some,probably,crazy person from IMH who send pantun like what the heck.And its all nonsense.Ish,ish,ish.Whatever la.I cant reply also.Hhaha.Bodoh person.

Ok.I have the bloody headache on my left side of my head already.Cant look at the comp for so long.Later I make poeple crazy,by watching me walking everywhere.Lol.Byes!

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Sunday, January 28, 2007

Oh my god!! I can't stop laughing man.Like shit.Hahahahahahahahhahahah!!!!! But I can't tell why I can't stop laughing,it's a secret.Lol.

Ahhhh.Gwen Stefani's voice damn cute.Hhaha.Its in my blog.LOL.Cute la!!

Hmmm. Ok.Mum making cornflakes,pineapple tart and cookies.So,gtg and help.Today's post is just nothing.Im writing coz Im bored.Lol.K,bye!!

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10:16 AM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Yo!!! This week,kinda fun actually.But,heh,whatever.Lol.So anyway,due to my oh-short-term-memory,I forgot what happened during the first few days of the week and what's my aim on writing this post today.Bleh.

So,anyway,yesterday,LDDS,was okay as usual.Haha.and the vocal warm ups,there was a game on "Bang!" ? Riight.Then did costuming and stuff.Did some some stupid stuff alright.Saiful aka Shorty was in our LDDS classroom after he finished his.Haha.He sucks.He ate with me,Aida,Nadz and Rif.Hahah.Shorty! I love making fun of him sia.Damn nice.And he's freaking Sec4 who's only 153cm.That sucks.He's like my big brother lah..Except that he's damn rich,and dammit,he's a playboy.Ishhh. Hmmm.

Got a lot of homework lately.And,tell you the truth,I dont really like Cikgu Zelda.I mean really,she gives us homework,but she said no need pass up.Gahh.Waste my time doing sia.Gah....Lets not talk about it lah kay..

Dad bought a new phone yesterday.I thought he wanted to buy Sony Ericson 850i,instead he bought like Nokia 6288.haha.what the hell.Anyway,this year,will be getting a new phone again.erm,end of year,i think.Thats what my dad said.I never open my mouth about wanting to have a new phone.Oh yeah!! Mum also getting new phone soon.Whee!!Seems like everyone's getting a new phone!! Like what the heck!!My maid also getting new phone,like wheeee!!Haha.Want to ask my mum to buy LG K800.The LG Chocolate series!! That phone is like bloody nice!Hmm.The season/year of economy booming.Heh.

Now,I love the song Tell Me by P.Diddy feat.Christina Aguilera.Damn nice.Haha.You should listen to it man.Plus I also like the song The Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani.Really nice.Besides,Gwen Stefani sounds cute in the song "the Sweet Escape".

TELL ME

Tell me
Whatcha thinking about when you got me waiting patiently
And usually I don't have to wait for nobody.
But there's something about you that really got me feelin weak,
And I'm trying to find the words to speak.

[Bridge]
Boy I got my eyes on you
So tell me what you want to do
I can picture you in my room
Until the morning.
I don't even know your name
Boy I need to know your name
I'm hopin that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it.

[Chorus]
I know your gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You know)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)

I know your gonna like it (I know)
So tell me how you want it (Tell me)
And you don't have to fight it (You know)
Cuz baby your invited. (Baby)

Thats the chorus.Damn nice!!Haha.Ok.Now,I got nothing to say.So,byes!!

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

Yay!! Lol.Today,school kinda bad and kinda good.Let me start with the bad things first la.

#1 : Had to stand on the table for Literature.And hell yeah,my head almost hit the spinning fan.Wtf.Had to stand on the table coz answered wrongly for 2 questions.Bleh.First girl/person to ever stand on the table for Lit.That just sucks.

#2 : Miss N**a made me look like a fucking idiot okay.She made me bring up the whole stack of A4 visual diary,39 of them,plus files.When I wanted to give it to her,she was, GONE. So fucking irratating.HATE HER MAN.

#3 : My bro go and tell his friend,whom my maid had taken care of before,that my maid is working with me.And that be hell shit man.Coz,I told the sister,who I coincidentally met on the bus,that my maid was in Indonesia. =X What the eff.Grr.

Ok.Now for the good things.

#1 : Finally today,I decided to be good to do my MATHS homework at home,even though I don't know how to do some questions.Ok,that was actually yesterday.Whatever.But still,yay!!

#2 : I FINALLY got to see, ________ on the bus today.He was freaking hot!! Wiipppee! Hhaah.But couldn't have the chance to get his number coz Ain was talking to me in the bus.So,bleh.Next time.Luckily I ran from one end of the bus interchange to the other.Hhaha.That you'll rarely see me do.I ran damn fast just now kay.So wtf-ing.

Actually,usually in the morning also,sometimes,if bus come already,I ran for the bus,if I still walking down from the stairs.Hehhe.

#3 : Today had class debate,and I'm in the Proposition side.Fun.Though Im not under Debate for LDDS,but Nazz got the notes.And did quite well.But tomorrow will be the real debate.Today was only trial.Hhee.

What other things I want to write?Oh yeah,later Aida,Nazz and me going to Woodlands New Town to see the cloth that we're intending to buy.It's for LDDS,coz for SYF we need to sew our own clothes for the play.Im not in the casting,but Aida,Nazz and me under costuming.So thats why.Cannot buy one.Haiz.Will probably have basic sewing lessons,according to Ms Kaur.Hmm.Dunno la.But I just simply love Aida's designs that Aida drew for the casting people.So niice!! So jealous of her man.Got talent to draw clothes.Just kidding.

Anyway,Im so freaking broke these days,no idea why.First 2 days,my money finish already.Wtf.But I NEVER ask for more money.If Im broke,then Im broke la.I dont care if have money or not actually.I dont really eat in school,except for sometimes.

Oh sheet!! I just remembered that next week got Lit presentation.Oh sheetz.Havent do script yet.Music,I kinda cant change to WMP format.Dont know how.Whatever.And Im supposed to be Napoleon,the pig in Animal Farm.That just sucks.

And also.Next week got THREE tests.Maths,Science and Malay.Sucks la.Ishhhhh!!! That just sucks.

K lah,I end this post with a song?For someone.Eheh.But the person doesnt read my blog.Whatever.

Cinta ini
Kadang-kadang tak ada logika
Persis semua hasrat dalam hati
Karna ingin dapat memiliki
Dirimu hanya untuk sesaat

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Hey people!!School,well,still boring,like duh.Oh wait,did I mention that I was appointed to be the art rep just because I laughed too much.Ok,that just sucks la.Just because I laughed too much then the teacher appointed me as the art rep.Stupid shit.

Anyway,bought a gown on Sunday.Lol.YAYS!! hahaha.Metro having sale.So when I saw this gown,you know what caught my eye??Not the design,not the pattern on it.THE PRICE.How much was it,you may ask.Well now,Im telling you,that it was only...[drum roll]

NINETEEN DOLLARS!!

Yeps,$19.From $139.like wth?So like duh,I bought la.Hehe.By the way,its pink.Though I dont quite like it,but its okay.It'll make me look sweet.HAHAHA.Crap.

Next week got Maths test and Malay test.What the heck la.Only 4th week got test already.Sheetz.Hmm.Got homework,later doing.Wahh,so many.Maths,Science,Malay,English and History.So sucky.Hate it.Whatever la.Fail,fail la.Dont care.

Hmm.You know what?Ok,nevermind.Haha.Ok lah.Remember last me and Paul kinda always fight right?Haha.yeah,remember the days man.It was damn cute la kay.Well,not EXACTLY.My point is,now I get along well with him.Dont know why and dont know how.Sweet ain't it?Nah..Just some normal things.Buahahaha!! i find him sweet at times.heh.

~~So byes for now.Hehe.Sorry for the strike.Wtf.~~

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

Whee!!I downloaded Jesse McCartney's song, Just So You Know yesterday!! Woots.Song so nice. WAIT.Let me paste the lyrics.

JESSE MCCARTNEY
Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away

And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
There’s so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

And i don’t know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know
Just so you know

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Hahah.So nice.Plus.Got this song.I go get lyrics again.

Sandaran Hati -Letto

Yakinkah ku berdiri
Dilembah tanpa tepi
Bolehkah aku
Mendengarmu

Terkubur dalam emosi
Tanpa bisa bersembunyi
Aku dan nafasku
Merindukanmu

Terkurungku di sini
Teranginya yang sepi
Danku tau pasti
Kau menemani

Dalam hidupku
Kesendirianku

Teringatku teringat
Pada janjimu ku terikat
Hanya sekejapku berdiri
Ku lakukan sepenuh hati

Peduliku peduli
Siang dan malam yang berganti
Selingkuh ini tak ada arti
Jika kaulah sandaran hati
Kaulah sandaran hati

Inikah yang kau mau
Benarkah ini jalanmu
Hanyalah engkau
Yangku tuju

Pegang erat tanganku
Bimbing langkah kakiku
Aku hilang arah
Tanpa hatimu

Dalam gelapnya
Malam hariku

Teringatku teringat
Pada janjimu ku terikat
Hanya sekejapku berdiri
Ku lakukan sepenuh hati

Peduliku peduli
Siang dan malam yang berganti
Selingkuh ini tak ada arti
Jika kaulah sandaran hati
Kaulah sandaran hati
Kaulah sandaran hati

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The tune very nice.The lyrics also quite meaningful la.HEH.Whatever.Want to download more songs later.Hmmm.Got nothing else.Gonna finish my homework.Nyehehe.

Happy Birthday to Fitri!!YOU'RE FREAKING 14 NOW!!

So hope everything will go fine for you,pal.Hehehe. GOOD LUCK for everything you do yeah.

Ok,so done here.Gotta go.Byes!

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Saturday, January 13, 2007

Ok.So long never post.I know.But meh.School has got so boring than ever.2e1-ners not fun already.Almost half going matured,and no more fun can be found.What the hell.What happened to my dearest 1e1'o6?? So,got lots of hoemwork.But can finish them up later.Haiz.Been raining.And wtf,no going out.

And oh by the way,recently quitted Choir because, #1,it sucks. #2, It still sucks and #3,It still sucks like shit.Ok.And decided to be in eLDDS,which stands for English Literary Drama & Debate Society. Ok.More fun than dull,dull choir.Hahha.

Hmm.Anyway,blogging not to post anything about what happened for the past 2 weeks.As you know,my stories,will be boring for sure.So instead,blogging in part of the lyrics of a few Malay songs.Niice.

Hapus Aku -Nidji

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia
Itu yangku sebut cinta

Yakinkanlah ku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarlah waktu
Waktu
Hapus aku

Sedarkanlah ku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarlah waktu
Waktu
Hapus aku

K,can't really think right now.Lol.Coz when they sing,it wasn't that clear.Heh.Cant make it up.So anyways,till here.Byes.

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12:50 PM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

School sucks.I swear.Been tired during classes.And I almost slept within curriculum time.Hate it.Teachers boring except for some.Blog next time.Tired like,hell.And plus,havent really finished my Malay homework.Heh.Lazy do comeprehension.What the hell la.Malay teacher Mdm Zelda.She's fierce alright.Ok.Fine.Too sleepy to type.And Im off.

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Monday, January 01, 2007

Hey everyone!! Sorry didnt post about like what,weeks?? Haha. I was busy with homework,wrapping and loads of things.K,first,gonna tell you guys my trip to Batam.Was fun.Lol.So anyway,went on early Saturday morning.Around 8 am we left.

Day 1 :

Reached Harbourfront at around 8.30am.Mum and dad went to queue up to get the tickets.While my maid,Nurul and me went to buy some card.On the way down,so my grandmother who were also going to Batam with us.In short,they were going on the same ferry as us.Lol.My grandmother and her sibilings with their family.So,went on the 0930 ferry.My God,I had a headache.Sea-sick.Haha.Almost vomitted anyway,but didnt.My brothers did.Gross.But in the ferry,and since we were the closest to the television,we watched "Baby Genuises" or something like that.Lol.After like 20 mins in the ferry,when I could take it anymore,I slept.Reached there,we gathered as a whole family.Haha.Blocked other people's way.Lol.Saw the person that we hired for the van.Then after,we went shopping.Whee!

First to Nagoya Hill Mega Mall.But,there the things freaking expensive.So didnt buy anything in the end.On the way back,had a slight accident.The driver hit the toll gate exit.Whhopps.Lol.He had to pay Rp 30,000.Thats about $6.Cheap la.

After that went to DC Mall.There the dress nice la.But,dont have size.Bleh.Must lose the fats man.So,nothing to buy at one shop,we went to eat.On the way to the food court,one man he gave out flyers of free camera.My dad and I were like happy man.But...Ok,that part comes later.Then we passed this shop of kebaya.My God,the kebaya soo freaking nice.Got my size some more.Guess how much?Rp200,000. Like wtf?Thats ONLY $40.And over here in Singapore,if you were to find those kind of kebaya,it'll be $100.Sheetz la.My dad said that he was on a budget and couldn't buy it for me. ='( Walked around,mum saw carpet that was cheap and she bought it.Hahaha.Went to eat after that.Ate Mi Bakso.So nice.Bakso is actually,meat rolled into balls[caution: No negative thinking,please...] SO,it was really nice.

They have it in Singapore,but around the Orchard area.If anyone wants,I can show you where.But just tell you,the shop name is Es Teler 77.Drop off at Somerset.Cross the road.And its along one of the shops.

Then continued walking.My mum bought a Gucci bag.Not real one.Imitation,thats why cheap.Around Rp180,000.Thats like, $36?Very the cheap.My maid and I bought wallet!! Yay!! So nice.Haha.I make you all jealous la kay.My wallet brand,Guess,you know.I know you jealous la,its okay.Normal.Anyway,back to the topic.Went to the 3rd floor.Went to collect camera.But the person say another 1 hour.Wtf?So,went to buy my maid's shoe.Then,we were kinda tired,we checked into the hotel.It was small,but it's okay.Budget la.Hehe. $20 for one day.Cheap right?

After 1 1/2 hour went to DC Mall again to collect camera.Here's the part.We went to collect camera right?So,went in.The guy talk about dunno what crap.And bla,bla,bla.Dunno what crap.Alas,we got the camera after 20 mins.When we walked out,we took out the cam from the box.What.The.Hell.You know what camera they gave us?They gave us the reloadable camera,which doesnt need battery.It was fake,like duh.My dad,my maid,Nurul and me laughed like mad people.Haha.

After that went to Balerang Bridge.It was nice.Like San Francisco,I mean the structure.It connects to 7 island.Very long.Can see the sun set also.Very nice.But didnt bring cam,so couldnt take picture of it.The ocean also nice.Hehe.Ate some stuff the sold there.Okay la.Not that bad.Went to my grandmother's hotel.Very nice man.Anyway,ate dinner.Went to BCS Mall.Nothing there,and besides we were tired.Didnt walked around much.Went back hotel after that.Bathed,watched tv,sleep.ZZZZZ.

Day 2:

Woke up quite early. 8.00 WIB. Means, 8 am Indonesian time.Hehe.Okay la.It 9 am SGT.lol.Quite late also.Went to mosque in the kampongs.First time see-ing kampongs.To me it was nice,beacause of the freedom.But environment,not THAT good.Went to the mosque actually to see the sacrificial lambs.But since there were no lambs,they used the cows.Eurgh.Gross.Blood oozing out from the head.I got the picture in my phone.Eurgh,gross.After that recite some prayers,and went off.Went for facial treatment after that.Boo-hoo.Painful.I had an acne treatment.They like poke with needle on my face.But now okay already.Hehe.Shall not talk about it.Painful.After that went to some place,and went home.

Actually,I go Batam want to find dress.But dont have.So yesterday night,when I got nothing to do,I used my blanket to make into a gown.Haha.Very funny.Modelled it around my brothers room.Like crazy woman.Lol.Seriously.My grandmother,maid,cousin and brothers laughed at me sia.Sampuk Batam ah.Haha.

Anyway,gotta go.byes!!Gotta wrap book.

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