Tuesday, January 30, 2007
OK.Didnt go school today.Duh, on MC.Plus 1 week of no no P.E. ok THAT'll be BORING.Bleh.Like what the heck la.Im really bored.Now.No one online.So damn bored.
SO anyway,today,finally I told someone who I REALLY love.I got that off my chest,like finally.And Im still not telling who that person is.Its not who you guys think it is.
DEFINITELY NOT PAUL.Yes,I
DID admit I
KIND of like him.But like as in friend like AND THATS IT,no more than that,I SWEAR.Yeah,so,Im really not telling anyone.Its someone,whom none of you know or maybe.Whatever.And I told my maid,lol.She understands me lahhh.Im not planning to tell anyone else.NEVER telling anyone else.Coz probably,I realised that I really love that person.OK.Too much information,SOO.....
LET'S MOVE ON!!!!!
HMMM..I just realised another thing today.Ok,there's this saying "What goes around,comes around",right? I realised that,you may not realise it,whatever we do now,no matter whether its good or bad, it will actually come back to start again.
Ok.You dont understand that,dont you?Let me make it into a short story.Its real,btw.
Its actually between a boy and a girl.The boy is called Alan.And the girl is,erm..Sera.
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Alan and Sera are actually close friends when they were really young.And both of them are somehow related.This Alan,he's handsome,rich and matches everything on the Prince Charming list,adding to that,he's not a playboy. Sera is actually a normal girl,who is somewhat a tomboy.Alan is actually a year older than Sera.And let me add one more thing.Sera does not know how to have feelings for boys.ok?Here goes.
Alan and Sera will always play together when they were young.Since young,Alan had feelings for Sera despite her tomboyish looks and also tomboyish attitude.Though they are millions of girls after Alan,he still LOVES Sera no matter what.One day,when Alan really couldn't hold back his feelings any longer,he told Sera.And Sera just bought 2 ice cream for herself.
"Sera,I want to talk to you."
"Talk lah! What you want to talk about?Just now,I ask you if you want ice cream,you dont want."
"Erm..But I..Dont know how to say."
If you dont know what to say,then dont say!"
"Ok lah.I want to be honest with you.I like you.I mean,not as in just like,but actually I LOVE you."
Sera just kept quiet and continued eating her ice cream,as if nothing had happened.When they stopped for a while,Alan asked again.
"Sera,did you hear what I said just now?"
"Yeah..If you love me,then love me lah!What you me to do??!!"
Those words that had just came out from her mouth,shocked him to death.So,he decided not to say a thing.
The next day,they still acted like normal,as if nothing happened.As time goes by,Sera started to learn how to like boys.And from there she started liking him too,but dare not say it out.Alan kept writing her letters to tell her that she's the only one in his heart.
After graduating from secondary school,Sera decided to work in Malaysia to help put her aunt there.With the strong feelings that she had for Alan,she still left for Malaysia.After 2 years of working in Malaysia,she asked for permission to return back to her hometown,to visit her parents.
Days after she returned home,her cousin told her that Alan wanted to see her.
"For what?Ask him to go back lah!! I dont want to see him also!!" Sera said,as if she was being possessed by some kind of Setan.
"You sure you dont want to see him?He's waiting for you at the normal place..", Randy,Sera's cousin said.
"Duh!! If I said,I dont want to see him,then I dont want lah!!"
So Randy left her alone.Though she really missed him really badly,she,being stubborn didn't want to see him.Want to know the reason why?
There was someone who framed Alan of being a playboy.And stupidly,she believed.So,she had this mixed feeling of hating and loving him at the same time.
So,when she had to return to Malaysia o earn more money,she left without saying a thing to Alan.Of course,Alan felt terribly sad.
One day,Sera opened her mailbox,and she read a letter.A letter from Alan.
Dear Sera,
You now know that I really love you with all my heart.But how come,you won't return my love?Probably,you already know that Im getting married.Im getting married because its arranged by my parents.Although Im going to marry her,but,really,I never loved her even one bit.Even though Im getting married,I will still love you forever.And I dont know if this marriage will even last long.Please,if you really love me,just please this once,tell me that you love me too.
Love you always,
Alan
After reading it,her tears fell.The mixed emotions that she had ran through her as if she really was going to black out.When her parents called her that Alan,was really getting married and the process of the exchange of rings was going on,she cried and in her,her heart was screaming out loud, "ALAN!! DONT GET MARRIED!! I LOVE YOU TOO!! PLEASE,CALL OFF THE MARRIAGE!!"
Because of her ego,she couldn't stop everything that had/was going to happen.Even if she does,it would be too late.She cried her whole heart out,and until now,it really hurts.
Years had passed.And Sera found herself of what she thought was Mr. Right.They went on the relationship for 2 years and even got engaged.Weeks before her wedding,she found out something...
The person,who she thought was Mr. Right,is actually a married man with children.
But,with a strong heart and strong self discipline,she didnt really cry.That was because she knew,thats her "blessing" of not returning Alan's love,though,she did have feelings for him too.But what she did that was wrong was, hating him for no particular reason and always avoiding him and always hurt his feelings.
She now learned her lesson that she should accept someone who really love her.
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Moral of the story : When you hurt someone who loves you so much,and hurt him/her,it will come back to square one,if you love someone and then the person will hurt you back,maybe as much as what the other person felt when he was hurt by you.
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Ok,yeah.If you still dont understand,then I also dont know.Lol.Really,the saying really will have,at least once,made you realise your mistakes and made you regret on what you have done in the past,right?
Ok.So enough of that.Byes!! Im going off!
there it went
5:01 PM
